crying and cleaning

i've been crying now for about 30 minutes.. it's not too sad of a cry.. but there is meaning behind it.. the meaning isnt necessarily the issue here so i'm not going to bring it up.. the point is though, why do we cry and then feel better? what makes our body think that crying is the key to fixing the problem? I mean it never really fixes the problem unless you're utilizing your tantrum skills to get what you want.. so why, then, do we cry when we're sad? I'm sitting in my room all by myself crying.. who am i crying for? can't i just be sad, or overwhelmed, or stressed, or whatever it is that i am? i have to be crying? i'm about to start cleaning my room and i guarantee that the whole time i'm cleaning, i'll be crying.. it'll come and go in waves i know it.. what the hell

i just waited for my roommate (sorry brittany) to leave so i can start crying.. what does that mean? i planned to cry... i could keep myself from doing it just long enough for her to get ready for work and leave.. then i turned on the water show and here i am, a crying mess of a person.

i feel like since your body cant physically just explode, it cries instead.. it's the closest thing it could get to exploding, but without all the blood and guts and traumatizing of children on the streets.

ok wine time. drink my sorrows away.. well, that or i drink every night and it just so happens now that i have a night that i'm sad

ALCOHOLIC, PARTY OF ONE.... ALCOHOLIC??... PARTY OF ONE??