perspective, or lack thereof

it's weird meeting people you look up to, only to find that they don't look up to themselves.

nothing is ever as it seems, sedaris taught me that at a young age

i can look at one person and think he/she is amazing and talented and beautiful and way too good to be my friend/be someone's girlfriend/be someone's boyfriend/ whatever. but that person might not think the same about themselves. how does that happen? how do i look at one person from the outside and see AMAZINGNESS, but that person sees shit? even when everyone that surrounds her/him tells her/him otherwise?

or when you meet someone who has so many awesome friends that love them and an amazing family and everything going for them, but you get to know them well enough and realize that they hurt so much inside.. how does that happen?

then i start thinking, who looks at me and thinks i have an amazing life and thinks i'm beautiful, but i'm too caught up in negativity to think the same thing?

i'm not one to think i am ugly or untalented or have nothing going for me, but i think everyone (no matter who you are) goes through that ugly funk of negativity and it acts like a vacuum. then you start thinking about everything bad: ugly nose, bad laugh, not where you want to be career-wise or educationally... and it just goes from there.. negative vacuum

but sometimes all it takes is that one happy thought... to make you fly.... out of negative funk, party of one.....

a lot of times, MOST of the time, there is the problem of low self-esteem, self-doubt... that issue becomes the reason for problems... problems in life, relationships, POLITICS EVEN! if everyone just shut the fuck up about the pity party and just started relaxing and enjoying (ACCEPTING) life for what it is, i think (KNOW) there would be less problems

ok my roomie's home and we're having slumber party girl talk now... duty calls!

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