is victor a word?

i have a horrible habit of hating someone i never give a chance. it happens all the time.. this happens mostly (always) with girls... guys i dont do it with because (sorry boys) they are usually too simple to provoke any sort of intimidation.

girls, though... girls girls... they are vicious creatures sometimes. I especially know because I am truly guilty for being a vicious girl at her finest.. this is probably a huge reason why i dont trust other girls. i'm fully aware of their capabilities..

but the energy of hatred i waste is truly just wasted because it never is what it seems. this is true for multiple occasions and i have not yet seemed to learn my lesson. however, i am addressing the problem and finding its roots... this will at least help me to now overcome this problem

root of problem: my mother (hi mom!).... she taught me everything i know about the cruel tactics of women.. thank you, mother.. you have protected me from falling face first in front of very cruel women, but you have also allowed me to become the kind of girls i hate, to a certain extent at least

I do not wish (women) to have power over men; but over themselves. – Mary Wollstonecraft

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